ava @aurora@social.bau-ha.us

never did an #introduction, so why not:
- Aurora or Zelda
- she/her
- anarchist / trans* / pan / vegan / late 20s
- not really good with people, but tries her best
- sort of good with hardware, #canhelpwith electronics, analogue audio, industrial machinery, engines
- likes cooking, knitting, gardening, photography, hyenas
- might one day overthrow the government
...thats the basics, kind of. :black_block_blob:

also, that reminds me of a conversation i had with a friend recently (it was 4am, she was drunk, but anyway): "when i first met you, i always felt there was something off, like you just didn't make sense as a person. but now...like, i really get you, you make sense, you're a whole person, and it's so different and awesome." i think that was one of the nicest compliments i have ever received. :)

turns out spending most of my 20s completely isolated and in an abusive relationship wasn't really good for, like, anything. i'm so glad i've finally managed to start living the life i want and get things done i had postponed for so long. it feels unreal sometimes, i mean, i'm studying art (and i'm actually good at it!), i'm on hrt (after years of panic attacks at the mere thought of talking about being trans), and people actually support me & like me for who i am. this is wild.

i feel like i'm missing all the routines and social cues, and it's hard to relearn all this now that i'm almost 30. it's still a mystery to me how all these other people do it, like, you just talk to people, what the fuck? anyway, it's exhausting, but so is feeling alone and lonely all the time, so i guess i just have to figure this out. oversharing on fedi still works better than talking to people afk 😅

so i needed about 20 years to figure out that i'm not really the introverted antisocial person i made myself believe i am, i actually crave human interaction and want to be with people, i'm just scared of being hurt, because that used to be the norm. things have changed, now i have wonderful friends & a social circle that cares about me, but i still tend to isolate myself and i feel easily overwhelmed anytime i do spend time with people.

sind auf diaspora eigentlich nur noch alte männer, rechte verschwörungstheoretiker, alpha-nerds, antifeministen und trans- und homophobe arschkrampen (natürlich überschneiden sich die gruppen)? ich kuck da ja alle paar monate mal wieder rein, aber es wird nur immer schlimmer. zeit den account zu löschen...

(og2-23 does not, because og2-23 is old as fuck and has no xy-mode, which means i need to hack it)

eo213 says trans rights

eine regionalbahn in thüringen mit wlan. krass. ist das diese zukunft, von der immer alle reden?

@bauhaus_fm kein kabel? kein problem. heute mit studiogast cisco (klingt erstaunlich gut)

warte, unsere db? also heute ist hier alles kaputt, würde mich nicht wundern, aber hier läufts grad

heute ab 22h astroradio bei @bauhaus_fm ! unter 03643/583853 anrufen, oder im chat bei https://bauhaus.fm schreiben und wir reden absolut unqualifiziert über die zukunft!

had a job recently where i got to work in a cinema projection room where they have two of these enormous czechoslovakian 35mm projectors, and this amazing construction with a system of dozens of guide rollers and pulleys running the film through the whole room and onto these giant spools. too bad they are only used once every few months nowadays.

a friend showed me some freecad basics and we constructed and 3d-printed a new counter-reset-button for my tape machine :) really happy with the result, that button had been missing ever since i got the machine (8 years ago?), and spares for 50+ year old equipment are impossible to get.

ad astra is probably the worst sci-fi movie i have ever seen, and i've seen a lot of trash. the whole plot is this really awkward hollywood cringetopia. redemption arc, pointless action scenes, glorification of the military & the masculine, some romance, happy end, etc, etc. it's the future and women in space are still mostly portrayed as stereotypical secretaries and background characters. come on, even trashy 1950s sci-fi was ahead of that.

aber es gab auf dem weg auch schöne neue graffitis!